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‘The Squashbuckler Diaries’ are the daily tales of Joy Shelley’s Life in the Dream. The ‘Lost in Dreams’ books will tell the story of what happens to her at ages 6, 9, 12, 15, and so on. The diaries tell us what happens before, after, and between the books.

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Jul 14
Jul 14 S02E250 Meet Justin’s Family, Part 5, Take Two

Age: 6.5, Told by Grampa Walt

“I don’t want to do it!” Joy crosses her arms.

Once we’ve all gotten over the shock of who Ethan is, Justin suggests we try meeting his sister and her two sons. Again. He wouldn’t be able to summon Ethan again, because Joy made sure to turn him permanent before killing him. But at this point no one wants to see him anyway.

“It’s not up to you,” Justin tells her. “She’s my sister. She’s your aunt. She’s family. You’re going to meet Angela. And you’re going to meet your two nephews, because they’re super cute.”

“I won’t do it! I’ll kill them!”

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Mar 1
Mar 1 #389: The Two Killers, Part 4

Age: 5.5, Told by The Red Dragon

Dragon Father appeared on the deck of Bonny’s Revenge while Dragon Little was still asleep in the Infinite Prison, held gently by General Hawk.

“Joy! Joy!” Dragon Father called out after seeing Dragon Little was not in her cabin.

A quick search revealing nothing sent him down to the winding stairway into the infinite corridor and out of my eyesight.

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Feb 28
Feb 28 #388: The Two Killers, Part 3

Age: 5.5, Told by The Red Dragon

“For many days, now, and perhaps weeks or even months, your mind will return to that moment when you killed the Goblin Monster. It will return to it and try to find another way, another solution, another path. Maybe it will succeed, maybe it won’t.”

“There was no other path, General Hawk.”

“Maybe it will succeed, maybe it won’t,” the general repeated, not conceding her point. “It would not matter, for it is done. Your mind will return to the terrible emotions you are feeling now again and again and again. For weeks and even months. And perhaps… Perhaps your feelings will turn to hate of self, hating what you did. And then… in the future, the next time you kill, it will be easier. And that time after that, easier still.”

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Jan 20
Jan 20 #387: The Two Killers, Part 2

Age: 5.5, Told by The Red Dragon

Dragon Little cried. It gushed out of her like a tidal wave.

I could not see her, since she was in the Infinite Prison in the belly of Bonny’s Revenge.

I wanted to hold her and make it better. But I could not.

As she cried, I heard the rustling of the iron bars of General Hawk’s cell. And then I heard the sound of skin and feathers on human skin: he was not caressing her. He had reached out of the bars with his arm and burnt wing and was holding her as much as he could.

“I killed the Goblin Monster!” she said again, crying.

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Jan 18
Jan 18 #373: Life and Death, Part 6: Back to Killing

Age: 5.5, Told by The Red Dragon

(Author’s note: This diary entry was supposed to have been published weeks ago as part of the Goblin Monster saga and was omitted for some reason. I publish it here, now, numbered correctly, but out of order.)

The goblin monster was back to chasing the goblin children, ready to kill them as had killed all the goblins strewn in the street.

Dragon Little put the huge rocket launcher back on her shoulder. She aimed it at the goblin monster and breathed.

She placed her finger on the trigger.

She was aiming right at its center.

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Jan 18
Jan 18 #386: The Two Killers, Part 1

Age: 5.5, Told by The Red Dragon

I have told you of the day when Dragon Father decided to teach Dragon Little that killing ist necessary. I have told you how he created a dream that forced her to kill the Goblin Monster.

I have not told you of the things that happened afterwards, when Dragon Father was away and awake in what dreamers often call ‘the real world’.

After Dragon Father disappeared, Dragon Little walked the deck from side to side for more than an hour. She climbed the mast and sat in the crow’s nest. She sat on the plank and stared at the ocean.

She took Bonny’s Revenge for a flight around the stars and quickly returned to the ocean, having stopped for nothing on the way.

That day, Dragon Little fell asleep in the crow’s nest.

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Dec 28
Dec 28 #377: Life and Death, Part 10: I’m Sorry for Your Loss

Age: 5.5, Told by The Red Dragon

Dragon Father approached her and put his hand around her shoulder. “You want to tell him you feel bad?”

She nodded.

“Then usually what we say is ‘I’m sorry for your loss’.”

“I’m sorry for your loss, sir!”

The elderly goblin nodded somberly. “You know…” he said in his slow way. “I knew this day would come.”

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Dec 27
Dec 27 #376: Life and Death, Part 9: The Goblin Monster’s Family

Age: 5.5, Told by The Red Dragon

Dec 22
Dec 22 #375: Life and Death, Part 8: The Goblin Village

Age: 5.5, Told by The Red Dragon

Dragon Little ran into the village.

Male and female goblins were coming out of huts, looking at what the goblin monster left in his wake. Bodies of dead goblins were strewn all around. Huts were destroyed.

Children ran to their parents. Goblins looked and cried over the bodies of their loved ones.

I have never seen so much devastation and sadness and slaughter in Dragon Father’s dreams.

“Excuse me,” Dragon Little approached a goblin mother hugging her child. “Do you know where the goblin monster came from?”

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Dec 17
Dec 17 #374: Life and Death, Part 7: Empathy

Age: 5.5, Told by The Red Dragon

“I want to see his family,” Dragon Little said.

Dragon Father stopped and looked at her, confused. “Whose family?”

“The goblin monster’s,” she said. “He has a father, right? Someone brought him up. I killed his son. I want to see him.”

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Dec 12
Dec 12 #372: Life and Death, Part 5: The Goblin Monster Vs. Joy

Age: 5.5, Told by The Red Dragon

The goblin monster growled at Dragon Little.

“You!” Dragon Little yelled at him. “Don’t! Kill! Goblin! Kids!”

The goblin monster growled more, then, began to turn around.

“Hey!” Dragon Little yelled again. “Don’t ignore me!”

The goblin monster turned at hearing her voice.

With two hands, Dragon Little raised the rocket launcher as high as she could, as it pointed downwards, then slammed it on the goblin monster’s toe.

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Dec 11
Dec 11 #371: Life and Death, Part 4: The Danger

Age: 5.5, Told by The Red Dragon

Dec 9
Dec 9 #370: Life and Death, Part 3: The Goblin Monster

Age: 5.5, Told by The Red Dragon

Bodies of goblins lay strewn in the street. The huge goblin was stomping the rest.

Dragon Father’s dreams do not usually summon such grim images. I have seen such things before, and it was hard to look at. I have seen a slaughter of dragons so horrible, so terrible…

I will not speak of it. I will only tell you of Dragon Little now.

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Feb 4
Feb 4 #207: The Death of the Evil Fairy Forest King

Age: 5, Told by The Red Dragon

It is time I told you how the Evil Fairy Forest King died. I have told you of the events that led to his death. I have told you how his behavior affected the 5-year-old Dragon Little. And I have told you how she discovered his body.

But it is something I should relate. Because you need to know what happens in the belly of Bonny’s Revenge.

The prisoners in the Infinite Prison are all villains captured by Dragon Little and Dragon Father during their adventures. When Dragon Father is away, in his waking world, the villains become Dragon Little’s companions.

What does that mean? You will see.

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Feb 3
Feb 3 #206: Killing Is Wrong, Part 3: Trembling

Age: 5, Told by The Red Dragon

Dragon Little raised her small hand.

“My hand is shivering,” she said.

“It’s called trembling.”

“I’m not cold.”

“Yeah. It’s not because you’re cold. It’s because you’re really upset.”

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Feb 2
Feb 2 #205: Killing Is Wrong, Part 2: Killing Is Right

Age: 5, Told by The Red Dragon

Dragon Father joined Dragon Little on the deck of Bonny’s Revenge, leaning against the railing, and put a hand around her shoulders. They stared off at the horizon of the endless ocean in silence for a minute or so.

“He didn’t need to die,” she said through gritted teeth.

“I know,” Dragon Father said softly.

“I don’t need protection,” she said.

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Jan 31
Jan 31 #204: Killing Is Wrong

Age: 5, Told by The Red Dragon

“General Hawk,” Dragon Father’s voice boomed. “What did you do? Do not lie!”

“I killed him, pirate,” General Hawk’s voice was measured and soft. “I will not apologize for it.”

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